Whew!  It's been awhile since I've posted, but yes I am still here.  So how about a little updating.  First, the food.  I am doing fantastic!  But it's a little easier for me because I already LOVE healthy stuff.  Fresh fruit is my mistress and raw veggies are the beautiful babies (that I eat).  Hmm that was weird, but whatever, you get the point.  I love fruits and veggies, and yes, all veggies, even brussel sprouts and broccoli.  The kid inside me dies a little every time I eat them, but damn they are good :)  I also am a big time water drinker.  I can drink anywhere from 80 to 120 ounces of water a day.  Combine that with my already tiny bladder and it's a miracle I can make it out of the bathroom for very long.  That being said, I love water.  And it has to be plain water, not kool-aid, not lemonade, and not even Propel, just good old, plain, cold water.  Actually, it doesn't even have to be cold.  It's kinda gross, but I have been known to drink water out of random water bottles I've previously left in my car when I get thirsty enough.  I know, I'm gross and will probably die of plastic poisoning or something, but whatever, at least I won't be thirsty. :)

As far as the exercise goes, hmm, not so good.  Between the VCR dieing (and having to wait until pay day to replace it) and limiting cardio until after I see the cardiologist, I have been using my workout ball a lot.  I can't remember what the actual name of that dang thing is, but it's the big, grey, ball that you can sit on and do sit ups and push ups on, not the little water ones.  Also, I bought a yoga mat so I can actually use my pilates tape without pain (hopefully) after the VCR gets fixed.  It's a pretty purple color with some kind of flower on it, aka, the cheapest one the store had.  Sometimes, I throw on some Deadmau5 or Skrillex and just stretch or do random workout things.  It's nice to have structure, but there are some days when you just have to be like, fuck it, I'm just gonna do this and be happy with it.

My last little thing I want to say is to give your self little rewards.  I used to try to give myself food rewards or games or something, but that got expensive and then I ended up just randomly buying things, lol.  However, I do need help or a little motivation to keep going.  Do you remember in school when you would get a test back (and I'm talking elementary school here) and there would be a sticker and the teacher wrote something like "great job" on it?  Well, that's my rewards now.  On my calendar, I put little stickers for everyday that I work out.  It doesn't matter what I do to workout, just that I do SOMETHING, and I get a sticker.  I have to move that day and get out of breath and then I get my little sticker.  Awesome possum.  :)